Oh crap!

So I have been a mom now for 2 months. I feel like I am doing ok in the mommy department. She is healthy, gaining weight and seems to be happy when she isn't colicky (which is slowly getting better). Well, I guess I have a lot to learn, or Little Miss has a lot to teach me.

Yesterday Little Miss was up most of the day yesterday and I was thinking "Oh,she is going to sleep good tonight". I was finally able to put her to sleep and she stayed asleep at 3:30. I am running on 4 hours of sleep. I would try to sleep myself not that she is asleep again but I guarantee the minute I fall asleep she will wake up! I am going to try though. Like I said she is a lot better at night now. We still have to give her colic soother but she isn't crying the whole time now, which is nice. She just has her days and nights mixed up. How do you fix that??

My father is coming tomorrow to met her. I am so excited! Yet, if she continues to stay up until 3:30... it is going to be a long visit for all!

Then she has the ability that the minute I think I have time to eat or shower after putting her down for a nap she will wake up, yet if I think that she is going to wake up soon and I don't take the time to eat or whatever, that is when she can sleep a lot. Yet then after I realize that she is going to sleep for a while the minute I start to make something she wakes up! How does she do that?


Then, and I feel really bad for her, she had 3 full poopy diapers this morning! No wonder she was having a hard time going to sleep last night! Even I felt better! Her digestive system is improving and now only going poopy once a day but man alive that was a lot!

I still don't know how to put her in her crib at night without her waking up 90% of the time (at night only). I don't know how to bounce her in my arms the way her daddy can, and I don't think I ever will be able to. I am learning how to talk to a baby and not feel silly. I still don't know how to do things with one hand. I need to learn how to relax when she is asleep and yet still have time to clean the house! And to keep it clean!

So I have a lot to learn but I am learning! I guess I have started to learn what the different cries mean. I know how to change a dirty diaper, change her clothing, bather her. I know how to hold her and carry her and put her in her carseat. I finally learned to open the stroller. I know how to feed her. I know how to love her even when she is crying REALLY loudly in my ear. I know how to laugh at her cute crying faces and realize that she will only be little once.I know how to love her unconditionally and care for her.

I am so excited to have this chance to be her mommy. I have grown so much because of her. Branch and Little Miss mean the world to me and I am so happy to have them in my life. I am so lucky!

I am going to post some pictures later. Again I know that is what you really want anyway!

I'm thankful

I wanted my first blog to be special so I have decided to count my blessings. I have truly been blessed this year and I just hope you guys all indulge me for a moment.

First, I am so thankful for my husband. Branch is the most wonderful person I know. He is so loving and caring. I am so lucky to have him in my life. I know I am not the easiest person to live with and yet he puts up with me and he loves me no matter what! He is the love of my life. I often tell him I am so lucky to have him as my husband but he isn’t so lucky to have me as his wife. He always lets me know that he wouldn’t have it any other way. He recently gave me the best gift I have ever been given with the addition to our family of Maya.

Next, the newest love of my life, Himaya. I only pray that I can be the mom she deserves. I am going to try my hardest to be the best mom to her. I know I will make mistakes but I will learn from them. I love everything about her, from her crooked smile when she sleeps to her quivering lip when she cries (and she sure can cry! Really loud!) She has already taught me so much from unconditional love to patience. I am truly blessed to be the mommy of this beautiful little girl!

I am thankful for family. I never realized how lucky I was to have family close by until I moved. I am so lucky to have the people in my life that I do. Now that I have a child I really do realize how important family is. I am so thankful to have the parents I do who each, in their own way, taught me to be who I am and what love is. I am growing to really love and appreciate my brothers and sisters for who they are, even though they all use to beat me up! No, they are all good role models to me. My in-laws have always accepted me and I am so lucky to have in-laws that I love!

I am so thankful that we are here in Texas and that Branch is able to be going to school for Prosthetics and Orthotics. It is what he has always wanted to do and to be able to be in this program is awesome for him and for us. I am also thankful that he only has a year left and then we can get out of here!

I am so very thankful to be able to be a stay-at-home mommy. I wasn’t sure I was going to be able to do this but taking a leap of faith and a prayer I quit my job. We were blessed to receive in-state tuition this year which will save us $12,000 in student loans. We had already taken out all the student loans we needed to cover everything. Now we have a safety net. In fact, it is saving us exactly what I would have made working part-time, but this way I get to stay with Maya.

I am so thankful for the Gospel in my life. I have received so many blessings because of my membership in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I am so blessed to have a testimony of the Book of Mormon and of the atonement of Jesus Christ. I am blessed to be sealed for time and all eternity to my husband Branch. I am looking forward to teaching my children about the love of their Heavenly Father and his Son Jesus Christ.

I haven’t written everything I am so thankful for but there are many more things. Thanks to everyone and everything.

I will try to post as often as I can. I am boring though so they will be all about Maya, but I am pretty sure that is who you are more interested in anyway!